I am a student at a university, I’m working extra at a café. I’ve got friends from different backgrounds which results in me going to different sorts of activities. I cannot meet all my friends at once cause they simply wouldn’t fit. I love music and making it along with reflecting on life and letting my pain out. That takes time, time and space to crash but also gives the conversion of the stress and tension of today into something beautiful or bold. All of this takes time and so requires a vast amount of planning. Having a girlfriend in and around these activities and having to prioritise her gives even more planning. So much planning it actually becomes an activity itself. 

As it is for today, we are trying to break up. Neither of us are willing to do so over the phone although we are outspoken of the details. There should be room for emotions, respect for what we’ve done and experienced as well as a final crucial yet melancholic good bye. This to ensure we can overcome the pain and sorrows we’ve dealt with and further be able to fill that heart with love once again. 

So, amongst school activities, friends and work there is simply no time to actually break up. The paradox is complete. Time in today’s society is an issue so fierce I can’t allow myself to have a prospering relationship. I can’t even quit it. It’s one of today’s loops where more and more hearts gets broken and the total amount of love in the world is beginning to run out.